As a young child, I thought I was doing the right thing by walking down the aisle and saying the ABC salvation prayer that I was taught to say. I knew my family members wanted me to do this. I didn’t understand it, but I knew the importance. I cried thinking that one day I would be without my family in heaven. I didn’t want that and I didn’t want to hinder anyone else from getting saved just because I didn’t take that first step. I didn’t fully understand the concept of salvation or really what I was as doing at the time but I did it anyway. Later, I was baptized and continued to live my life thinking I was saved. I mean, I was barely over toddler age when I walked the aisle. It seemed every time someone would preach on salvation I would feel convicted or like I wasn’t saved at all, but I kept convincing myself I was. Once again, saved and baptized at a young age. Even in my testimony, I’ve said I was saved as a child then came back to God, but I now know I was wrong.
In my early teenage years I turned my back on God and the church and did things my way. I rebelled for years and stopped going to church all together when I was old enough to work and drive on my own. I started working at 15 so I slowly started getting out of church because of work and I just didn’t want to go. In college, I continued to do my own thing with no worries or thoughts of being wrong. I was always right at that time.
But then one day, after my boyfriend and I had been living together for a few years, his grandfather passed away. At his funeral, my husband said they talked about what kind of legacy will you leave behind? What will people remember about you when you are gone? He was truly convicted by this and decided that the it was time we turned our lives around. He told me right then that he was going to church in the morning with or without me. I didn’t think he was serious but Sunday morning came and he got up to go to church. Shocked, I found some “churchy” clothes and went with him. For a while we bounced back and forth from my childhood church, Elljean Baptist church in Pickens, to his childhood church, New Beginnings Baptist Church in Six Mile. I felt like everyone was staring at the “prodigal son” when we walked in the church. I knew I needed Jesus in my heart but I never was ready to admit until one day at New Beginnings. My heart raced, I gripped the pew, and tears poured that Sunday morning in July of 2009 as I realized I had never truly been saved. I didn’t have Jesus in my heart and I didn’t have a clue what I was doing with my life. That day, I prayed to God like I meant it, not just the ABC prayer I quoted as a child, but a sincere prayer that secured my salvation. I knew from that moment on, I was saved. At the time, my tears embarrassed me and I ran out the door as soon as I could and put my sunglasses on so no one could tell I was crying the whole service. My pride was a work in progress to get rid of. Years passed by and I felt like something was still missing. I continued on in life and started teaching some with the youth, my husband was licensed to preach, and eventually we were youth leaders at 3 different churches. Every time I taught on baptism or listened to the preacher preach about it, I convinced myself I was ok because I was baptized as a child but I still felt convicted. Baptism doesn’t save you – it’s just an “outward expression of an inward confession” letting others know you have changed. . My pride kept me from talking to any pastor about getting baptized. What would people think? I was a youth leader, taught and even directed VBS for 3 years, and led conferences for teenage girls. What would people think if I got baptized almost 9 years after being saved??? Time and time again, I questioned myself and even spoke with my husband about it and prayed about it with him. Then I finally told him, “I feel like I’m telling God no every Sunday.” I knew what God wanted me to do but I wouldn’t do it because of my pride. Last Sunday, May 27th 2018, I walked the aisle and told pastor Jamie it was time I got baptized. He prayed with me and guess what, I’m getting baptized next Sunday, June 3rd at East Pickens Baptist Church almost 9 years after getting saved.
Baptism doesn’t save you but it does show others you are not ashamed of your salvation and you’ve changed your life for Him. When you go under the water it represents the death, burial, and resurrection of Jesus Christ. You are showing others that you are a new person in Christ.
The Bible says over and over again for us, as disciples of Christ, to “go and baptize others in His name.”
Matthew 28:19 “Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit,”
The Bible also tells us that we should not be ashamed of our salvation or let our pride get in our way of following His commands.
Matthew 10:32“Whoever acknowledges me before others, I will also acknowledge before my Father in Heaven.”
Mark 16:16 “He who has believed and has been baptized shall be saved; but he who has disbelieved shall be condemned.”
“For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ: for it is the power of God unto salvation to every one that believeth; to the Jew first, and also to the Greek.” Romans 1:16
I’ll end with this, don’t let your pride or your worries about what others will think, hold you back from doing God’s will. I told God no for several years and lived a life “thinking” I was saved and could do whatever I wanted. Then when I realized what I had done, and asked God for forgiveness and salvation in 2009, I still let my pride hold me back from baptism for almost 9 years! (Man, I’m stubborn!)
No one is perfect, and no one knows what tomorrow holds, so secure your salvation today and be baptized to let everyone know what God is doing in your life. As Pastor Jamie said Sunday, “this is a time of celebration!” I look forward to celebrating my salvation with my baptism on Sunday!
-Kayla Rampey
May God Bless You and Show you His Grace every day!