“He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the
weak.” Isaiah 40:29
With Empowered Jesus Girl only 2 weeks away, I am
encouraged by this verse, “He gives strength
to the weary and increases the power of the weak.” Isaiah 40:29. This past
weekend has been rough on my family. My oldest son, Carson who is 5 years old,
was diagnosed with pneumonia on Friday morning. We spent 2 ½ hours at the Doctor’s
office and I dreaded the germs that we were exposed to. As a mother of two,
when I walk into a Doctor’s office, everything I see looks like a germ. My “germ
goggles” turn on and one by one I see them creeping all over the room. When I
pick up the pen to sign in my kids, I think about all the sick people that
previously touched that pen. When I sit down and hold a clipboard filling out
paperwork, I once again worry about the patients that touched that same board.
As my two sons reach for a magazine, I jump up and stop them before it’s late,
you know there are germs on those things! I seriously turn into Ninja-Mom
trying to protect my kids from the evil germs everywhere! Don’t even get me
started on bathrooms and waiting room chairs!
But…I am only human and I can’t protect them from
everything. Even if I keep them from touching everything in the room, every
breath they take contains germs that I can’t even see. Germs give moms
nightmares is what I’m saying. Think about it next time you reach for the handrail
at the mall or press a button on an elevator that thousands of people have
already touched. What are you exposing yourself to?
Anyway, this blog is not supposed to be about my “germophobic”
self. Instead, it’s meant to be a reminder that we are not in control of
everything. There are dangers out there that we can’t even see. Even moms can’t
protect you from everything around you. Beyond germs, there are forces in this
world that I can’t fully protect my children from. There are people that will
try to lead ym children astray, television shows that will entrap my kids with
lies from the devil, and evils that I don’t even know how to explain.
Ephesians 6:12,
“For our struggle is not against
flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the
powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the
heavenly realms.”
The Bible tells us to always be on guard from the
devil’s schemes.
“Stay alert! Watch out for your great enemy,
the devil. He prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour.”
1 Peter 5:8
As Christians, this world is against us. After all, if
you had no interest in Jesus Christ and never served Him in any capacity, why
would the devil waste his time on you? The devil is going to attack anyone and everyone
that serves the Lord. This is not meant to scare you or discourage you from serving
God, instead, it is meant to remind you that you are not in this alone.
Although this world is against you, God is always with you!
“Have
I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not
be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” Joshua
1:9
As I prepare for Empowered Jesus Girl, I must admit, I
am under attack and your prayers area always greatly appreciated. A friend of
mine told me the other day that she admired my confidence and strength in the
Lord, but on the inside, I was
struggling just as much as she was. Every day I have to renew myself
spiritually by seeking the Lord for guidance, trusting Him, and knowing that He
has a plan that I cannot see. There are days that I feel like the devil is
throwing darts at me. Some of the darts are darts of anxiety, fear, and doubt.
Whereas, other darts contain sickness, weakness, and lack of confidence. It’s
been said that “you are your worst critic.”
Just last week, I published my first book, “But God
Had a Plan.” Shortly after receiving the first 75 orders, I started realizing that
I had basically just published a portion of my diary. My book is a 60-Day
devotional that is filled with personal experiences and positive impacts that Jesus
Christ has had on my life. I am not proud of every battle I have faced, but I
pray that the fact I have overcome my battles with Jesus Christ, will encourage
and strengthen other young women. My book will be available at Empowered Jesus
Girl and on Amazon.
My self-doubt and anxiety increased as more and more
books sold. Not to mention for 3 weeks straight I battled with formatting and
editing my book then found more errors after they were printed – so I had to go
back to re-format again and again. I’ve come to terms with the fact that if you
find mistakes in my final copy, just take them as reminders that I am human.
Empowered Jesus Girl is only 2 weeks away on February
8th, 2019. With it being at my home church, East Pickens Baptist, I’m
a little nervous about speaking – especially right now – because right now I
have no voice and I don’t know how that will work with speaking to a bunch of
teenagers. Sunday, my youngest son and I went to the Doctor as well. On top of
Carson having pneumonia, Asher has a double ear infection, and I have an upper respiratory
infection. Altogether, it has been a rough weekend, but I know where my strength
will come from.
At the Doctor Friday, even with a fever of 103, Carson
told the Doctor that he was hulk and he could defeat anyone except for God. The
nurse looked at him and said, “You’re right, you can’t be stronger than God
because He is the One that gives you your strength.”
At night, my anxiety increases, and I feel weaker and
more insecure that I ever have. God has used music to help me find peace each
night. There are hundreds of medications out there to help people sleep but only
Jesus Christ can give you the calm that will lull your heart to rest. At night
when I start to panic, I’ve started singing…not out loud because that would freak
my husband out and not be a peaceful calming sound…instead, I fill my mind
with praise and scripture. As I start to stare at the ceiling and struggle to
sleep, I quote the scriptures that fill my mind and sing the songs that bring
joy to my heart. Shortly afterwards, I fall asleep…I promise it works better
than counting sheep. I’ve never understood the sheep deal, but praise and
prayer will always help you through hard times.
The battles we face that other people cannot see
(worse than the germs all around you) are the ones that we can only fight with
Jesus Christ. Utilize His word, encouraging music, and uplifting friends to
find peace and get the rest you deserve.
“He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of
praise to our God. Many will see and fear the LORD and put their trust in him.”
Psalm 40:3
Listen to Lauren Daigle’s song, “You Say” for further
encouragement when you feel weak need His love and power to lift you up!
“I
keep fighting voices in my mind that say I’m not enough
Every single lie that tells me I will never measure up
Am I more than just the sum of every high and every low?
Remind me once again just who I am, because I need to know (ooh oh)
You
say I am loved when I can’t feel a thing
You say I am strong when I think I am weak
You say I am held when I am falling short
When I don’t belong, oh You say that I am Yours
And I believe , oh I believe
What You say of me
I believe
The
only thing that matters now is everything You think of me
In You I find my worth, in You I find my identity”
Don’t forget to go online to WildernesGrace.org to register you and your friends for a Girl’s Night Out at Empowered Jesus Girl 2019!
I can’t wait to see you there!
May God Bless you and show you His grace every day!
You can purchase my book online at: https://www.amazon.com/BUT-GOD-HAD-PLAN-JOURNEY/dp/1792166486/ref=sr_1_1_twi_pap_2?ie=UTF8&qid=1548685817&sr=8-1&keywords=kayla+rampey